Last night I was supposed to be photographing the labor and birth of my friends Jewelyn's baby girl Gabrielle. Instead today I am posting Jewelyn's picture from her maternity shoot we did just two weeks ago.
All I have to post are pictures from her maternity session because Jewelyn died today giving birth to her baby girl.
Yesterday we were texting each other excitingly planning the details of how she would let me know when her labor was really progressing, and when I would arrive at the hospital. How excited we were for her and her husband to meet Gabby. To become a family.
Today I sit here numb. Somehow my brain can't process it. But it is the truth.
Jewelyn is gone and the baby girl that was the subject of our every conversation will never get the chance to know her mother.
And while it may sound strange to you, I sit here grateful.
Grateful that I had the chance to know and love Jewelyn.
Grateful that Gabby is well and will be coming home soon.
Grateful that nine months ago, excited to learn of Jewelyn's long wanted pregnancy, we planned a maternity shoot.
Grateful because now I have these photographs of Jewelyn for Gabby and I can show her.
See you mother Gabby, see how beautiful she is. See how beautiful you two were that day. Your was mother glowing with love and excitement for you.
See how happy she was. See how much she loves you. See how much she wanted you. See how much you look like her.
I want yesterday back. I want to give it to Gabby.
But yesterday can't be had so I have these photos for you Gabby.
They are for you along with my love.
A Paypal account has been set up for Jewelyn's family with the email address email@example.com. 100% of the money collected will go to Jewelyn's husband and her daugther Gabby. If you can help in any way. Thank you.